Not changed, just protecting myself.
Like how aluminium forms a layer of protective oxide to protect itself from rusting.
You understand?




some happy days. :D

before oral. was nervous like shit and i kept mumbling that im very nervous. LOL. then laughed a lot cause we were talking about paris and milan show. HAHA.


i think my oral is okay leh, was super nervous before my turn, then kept singing. LOL :D
baby baby baby, baby-oh-baby, baby-oh-baby~
HAHAHA. esmond taught junhui this. and then he kept singing it the wrong way. :D




5-6 JULY 2009-

went out with chang, neh and ow to do hw in the afternoon, marina square to play in the evening and my house to 'do hw' in the middle of the night! :D
yeah they came to my house to sleep. :D




they call me new-urban-female. zzz. top, bag and havianas mah.
a happy ow! :D

i caught this both..
and another one to exchange for the chang's banana :D
so in all i caught 3 elmos :D
they say i look dame emo. :(
a very empty marina square at around 11pm+ :D

group photo. :D

i finished my mt orals. it's about yog and i so wanted to scream when i knew that was our conversation for the day.
OMG. so lucky :D
if i never get a1 i think i will cry like shit :'(
very scareddddd. how?!





bits and pieces here and there made me realise i don't know you that much actually.
and i suddenly feel that i totally got no more rights to do what i always does.
not that i don't care, but maybe others care more.
but everytime it links to 'others', i blame myself for caring too much.

JUST A DUPER QUICK POST BEFORE I GO MARINA SQUARE WITH CHANG, NEH AND OW.



HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIANT LIM XD

HELLO GIANT. SEE THIS AND BE HONOURED.
WAHAHAHAHA.
very long never see you alr.
see you soon okay.
(:





god is fair-
you lose something,
you gain something.

today is the third day of school!




i promised myself that i wont use com for too long, so ive gotta make this short! :D






hello wello. :D
yes happy sjab day! :D and ncc day! :D
today is a tiring day and i slept a lot T-T
slept in eng and phy lessons. LOL :D
pig? :/

okay you super cute la :D
see you small this time also!
hahaha :D
jiayou!

For some very simple reasons that you can't even answer the question 'why?'.
Believe me please.





lol. english deadlines extended to next tuesday. happy happy!!!!!
4 compos, 3 situationals, 2 compres. here i comeeeeeeeee :D



slept in class during ss today. HAHA.
i asked esmond how long i slept, he said awhile only.
but i felt like i slept for hours. whoooooo! i like it! :D



i hate life now. everyday lesson until 5.30 is like shit okay.
hell. which other school in the world also has lessons until 5.30 EVERY SINGLE DAY?
suckers, they should really go do some self-reflection and give a thought about students.
this is too much kay.
i dun mind staying this late for mother tongue intensive, but normal curriculum?
that's ridiculous.



eileen is very angry today because i got cheated :@ :@ :@
by the western food vendor.
i ordered fried rice, tgt with chang, then the total was $5.
and actually i thought it's one plate for $5, so i gave her $5.
then when i saw chang paying $$, then i realised it's one plate for $2.50 -.-
so i waited for her to give me my change.
wait wait wait. then she gave me back 50cents.


then i was like 'auntie, wo gei ni $5 leh.' (auntie, i gave you $5 leh.)
the the goddamn auntie replied, 'mei you ah, ni gei wo $3 er yi.' (no ah, you gave me $3 only.)

I WAS LIKE SUPER SURE I GAVE HER $5 CAUSE I HEARD HER SAY $5 LO.
THEN I AM DOUBLE SURE WHEN I RECALLED.

I HAD A $10 NOTE THIS MORNING, THEN I RETURNED JH $4, HE GAVE ME THREE $2 NOTES FOR CHANGE.
THEN I RECESS DRINK MILO, USED ONE OF THE $2 NOTES. GOT BACK A $1 COIN AND LOOSE CHANGES.
THEN I SHOULD HAVE 2 $2 NOTES LEFT RIGHT.
BLOODY HELL. IM SUPER SURE I DIDN'T BUY OTHER STUFF LO.


the goddamn auntie still showed me the container she used to collect money and then said 'no ah, i didnt receive your $5' *points to the container*
WALAU EH, FOR GOODNESS SAKE, LIKE EVEN IF MY MONEY INSIDE YOU ALSO WUN KNOW RIGHT. IT'S ALL MONEY INSIDE -.-
YOU EXPECT ME TO GO 'EH AUNTIE, THAT PURPLE COLOUR NOTE IS MINE!'
LIKE DAMN -.-
DO -.- THINGS.



waaa. make my blood boil. :@:@
if it's some stall outside right, they will sure give back money one lo.
then that goddamn auntie- walau eh.
food not nice nevermind la, still not honest somemore. grrrr.
some big shot ppl should go ask that stall to frigging close down -.-

and i purposely just slammed the whole goddamn plate when i returned it at the stall.
frigging hell.
gahh. super angry kay. :@ x 9032581




class seating arragement changed.
i have mus on my right!! :D
and i still have ficky on my left!!! :D :D
but he's self-quarantine-ing. zzz. one week wun come man. :(
no one to crap to in lesson.
today during powernap they played the 'when i fall in love~~' song then i thought of him lo.
cause he everytime will sing that song one :(
and we always guess what's the next blank in our notes for physics and poa.
HAHA. so childish right, but very cute lo. :D
dun kena h1n1 okay! me miss you! :D





how's that pink-gourd-shaped-shaking emoticon doing?
hahahahahha :D

and how can you copy me?!
rawr.
this time look down!! there's something next to your feet!!!
OMG, FASTER LOOK DOWN, FASTER FASTER!!




there's air. -.-
hahahahahahahhahahahHAHAHAHAHAH.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA.
okay zihigh.
sleep well!

some random stuff:


-im a proud recipient of the Chief Commissioner Badge! :D

-i've never ever ever completed all my holiday assignments ON TIME before. LOL. this time no exception (:

-i got super lotsa domos at home. HAHA. collection okay.

-i kept on daydreaming today. buried in my deep thoughts. im really thinking kay.

-i always do/say things that i regret. can't change them though.

-a lotttttttt of ppl asked me how much hw i had left, until i lazy to type out and copy paste:
*never do
*eng: 4 compos, 3 sit, 3 compo, 1/2 vocab
*maths: 1/2 of p2, tys
*chem: some ws
*phy: all
*humans: all
*poa: 3/4?

-tmr is my dooms day!




i dun know.
i feel like saying 'im sorry'.
i dun know for what too.




love orange? love orange! :D

eh dumb, look behind you.





BOOOO.
lol. :D

cyas!

Even if I don't change, it doesn't mean the whole world doesn't too.





2 more days. im gonna be dead.
don't feel like doing any other hw alr. i'll just let myself die man.
no wait, maybe i'll do it.
cause im having insomia these days. i sleep at 5+ okay! :D
it's difficult to change it back to sleep at 11 everyday. so yah. :D



tmr is prize presentation for chief com badge! omfg.
im excited plus excited and excited :D
does excited includes happiness?
well, im happy too! after 4 years of slogging in sjab- finally?
im super excited! :D



i think i totally love sjab. :D
promised to go otc after graduate. hope it's not a bad thing :D










my room is filled with soft toys and im lovin' it!












my 10 reasons? those are bullshit too.
tear the paper in shreds please.
no you don't care.
no you don't cherish.

yahooo! it's officially friday and im still left with a lot of hw! :D
i think i'll just complete eng :D



im super angry lo, walau.
i just got back my phone like on tuesday, then use one day, spoil again.
I SWEAR I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING BAD TO IT OKAY.
i didnt drop it, didnt throw, i treated it with care lo.
but then in the end spoil again. waste my $171.20. :@
now need go back repair again la, then im back with my spare phone.
RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRR. :@ :'(




love friends for sale wars in fb! hahahaha :D
cause i think i always win because i have $$$!
the only time i lost is because of ernest. zzz. he suddenly rose to 45m. walau, damn ex.
decided to forgo that. HAHAH :D




i think im posting about all the random things.
im lazy to post pictures.
watched drag me to hell with team ytd, omg, frigging frightening. :(
vaneh's fault. :(






received another mission! :D
dumb told me to blog about how cute dumb is.
omg. ultimate cute? okay ultimate cute. :D
then continue to stay ultimate cute! :D

your '17 more days' is today right. haha.
and you lied to me that time when i asked you about it :(
im not dumb, i do bloghop. so yeah. nevermind. :D
happy smsing lo. (:
tc. :D

i think im sad.
no, maybe very sad.
ha-ha.






i totally got no mood to write a proper post.

this was supposed to be on 23 june 2009, 1.24am.
but the damn laptop suddenly no batt and i totally forgot about it too.
-.-



/
you know hor, the you sleeping halfway, then suddenly you felt like falling and then suddenly woke up-
and find that nothing's wrong.
man. i hate this kidda feeling :(





just woke up not long ago because mummy and jiejie just came back.
hahaha. used com until fell asleep- been play friends for sale for almost the whole day! :D
new facebook addiction. HAHAHHA :D
love facebook to the max.




ahh, i received a mission at 12.56am just now.
that time you hen gentlemen ah, treat me eat fried prawn mee.
hahahahah. :D
/

WENT BOWLING TODAY AGAIN! :D
LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE BOWLING :D



and i think i improved alr okay.
i scored a total of 65 today and i got a strike man! A STRIKE. omg.
and my bowling ball rolled to the back when i swung it backwards.
throw face. -.-





looking forward to rod? yes? no?
i dont know.
mixed feelings.
means we'll totally step down (although we did).
like fang bu xia ah. shit.



im like totally setting my mind into getting into a jc.
gonna go yj i guess. but im afraid no one will wanna go with me lo :(
boooooo.



tomorrow is friday.

9-?: sjab plt 4 meeting
10-5+: dnt
3-6: trng.



HAHA. great not. all clashed.



(i must remind myself to call mdm chan.)


saw el today. omg.
like i was telling people how long ago it was when i last saw him and then i saw him today.
lol.
now i must go arnd telling people how long ago it was when i last saw ccm.
HAHA.

OMFG. I FRIGGING FORGOT TO MENTION THIS.






HOLIDAYS MAYBE EXTEND A WEEK?




AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
JUMP FOR JOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



i so hope it'll come true. HAHAHAH :D
and i love to write in blog fonts. cause im so high.
:D

LOVE KIMBUM LIKE DON'T KNOW WHAT SHIT NOW.
ohmyfrigginggod.
actually the facebook quiz up there is i purposely choose all the options that obviously is KIMBUM one lo.
HAHAHA. dont care. i love kimbum. :D





i think a lot people must think im super crazy to love KIMBUM until like that.
LOL. I AM CRAZY OKAY. hahahaha. :D






went for dinner with half of team (chang&neh), eileen mdm, pris, gladys and wenting mdms. :D
had pizza at amk! :D
talked a lot man. like a lot. omg. all about sjab one :D
from otc, ncoc, zone, zone/nat comps, gossiping about people. HAHA.
we were like that last table to be cleared and the last group to go off.
decided to leave when we saw them mopping the floor :O





reached home at arnd 11+. :D








i don't frigging think my holidays seem like a holiday.
omfrigging-g. is it even a holiday? :O
i think now all the coursework people all chionging coursework.
but walau, i still got trng on friday saturday sunday for this week.
OMFRIGGING-G. want compare not.
i rather be grounded. hell.





actually.. how i wished i was grounded loh.
now im like that completeeeeeeee opposite of being grounded. sian 1/2. no 3/4. kay la 9/10.

actually.. everyday stay at home also shuang one loh.
just stone there. waaalauuuu. shuang.

actually.. i so feel like going for a camp after hearing mdms talking about their otc loh.
camp is fun. me loves it.

actually.. my holiday homework is still like a lot undone loh.
i think i haven even completed 1/10 of it. AHAH. gl gl.

actually.. why am i even posting so many 'actually's?
and with a loh at the back. lol.










this blog is so frigging not colourful. blahh.











this is for you.
just look forward to friday.
(:
(short and, maybe sweet? heh.)

TODAY IS A HAPPPY DAY. I LIKE I LIKE.
kimbum is my phone's wallpaper, screensaver, laptop's wallpaper.
kimbum is on my blog.
kimbum is everywhere! :D






went bowling with lydia, nicholas and dekang.
nope actually they went to play pool first, then i sat aside and did a lil of poa. lol.
im not a good girl today! :O



i think bowling is super fun. hahahah :D
dk went to change all our names to:

nicholas-xiaohaizi
lydia-xiaobai
dekang-xiaohei
eileen-xiaopang


hahaha. had fun :D



ate. bused home.








i think im crazy cause i kept repeating BOF episode 25 part 6!
the part when yi jung came back to look for ga eul.
OMG.
when he said 'hello'.. hell. charming.




i want to watch it all over again. AHAHAHAHHAHA.
gimme time!










LOVE KIMBUM. :D

BOF IS DRIVING ME CRAZY.






i'm like back to my sec1 days sitting infront of the comp and watching shows all day.
and i always complain how little time i have to do my homework.
bwahhh. fine. i promise i'll really start homework after i finish watching BOF.
so yeah, now, i think i should quickly finish watching it. HAHAHAHAH. :D




BOF's so sad right now, i'll have to quickly watch finish or else i'll be sad for the rest of the day.
see, told you! i've got very low eq.
i get influenced very easily. :(
so when the show is sad, im sad, until the show becomes happy.
hahahahah. :D




I LOVE SO YI JUNG :D

I LOVE KIM BUM :D


fine, they're the same person. :D
so mesmerising, HAHAHAHAHA. OMG. :D



fly to watch BOF now! :D











why-oh-why do i have trng tmr? :(
why-oh-why must i wake up so early? :'(

eileen: can i like not go for trng tmr cause im like frigging tired after whole effing week of dnt and it felt like heaven when mrs ong said tmr dun need go. then go trng, sian half. can i like just skip tmr?



neh: okay lor, if the others don't mind, :] rest well alrights! :D



yi: I'm okay! You need to rest too! What the rest say?
leen: vaneh also say see the rest. lol. the other haven reply.
yi: I'm okay with you not going lo. Cause if you too tired also no point training.. You cant think well.




chang: hmmm, i can understand from your point of view, i'm fine with it but, i think they will be disappointed. If you really really really don't want to come then nevermind. I will help you explain to them. But i hope you know that we really really want you to come, or maybe you come later, don't go for breakfast?




ow: Honestly, without you, there is no point in carrying on. Youre everything to me..;) TEAM, i mean. Life is like pointless oredi. Anw, can we all skip together?















i don't know why i cried after i read those msges. :')
like frigging touched.




i know they wanna win this competition, for the one last time- one last chance.
no more alr, cause this really will be the last last one.
honestly, i wanna win too. but, there're some things that i just can't do.
i know im the leader of the team- national comp best team leader 2008.
i wanna get it again, 2009.
i know they keep telling me i can i can, but sometimes even me myself lose faith in myself.
that barrier in me- i just cant get over it.








because im the team leader, im supposed to keep the spirits up, keep motivating.
but im like always the one to bring it down, and to lose patience.
i think im a lousy leader, although they always tell me im the best.
whenever i look at the 'best team leader' trophy i've gotten, i always ask myself, 'what did i do to deserve that?'
and i can't think of any reasons.
and the only answer i can come up with is, tyco shit.








whatever it is, i know i gotta buck up- studies, competitions, relations.
i dun know why but i got damn frigging stressed up when ms lim told me both herself and mrs gopala has high hopes in me, to be one of the top students for o.
i dun know why but i got damn frigging stressed up when mdm chan told me the expectations for us in this national competition is top3.
skip the relations part- just totally suck.


it's not that i wanna proof to others that i can do it, i can oh-be-a-super-all-rounder and do everything.
i dun fucking care.
but it's the disappointment i see from others that makes me wanna do well.
my teammates' fighting spirit makes me feel so inferior.
we're all tired, but they can keep up the spirit, so why can't i?
i dun wanna disappoint anyone- including myself.
when i tell myself i'll do it- i'll do it well.








i know they'll be there for me no matter what happens, so i should be there too.
i'll go tmr, even if im frigging tired. (:
even if i have tuition after that- i dun care.
we'll win this time round.